Being unaffected and bulldozing through an experience is not strength. Being defeated, being made to feel small, failing, but still moving foward... THAT is strength.
There was a Chicago audition this morning, but like many of the other auditions I have attempted to attend since returning from Africa, they chose not to see Non-Equity.
Instead, I took an acting class from Bronwen Carson at BDC, and tried to focus on moving forward, despite being frustrated with what I perceive as a lack of progress in my performing endeavors. The above bits of wisdom were gleaned from that class.
I like being vulnerable, because sometimes it helps others commiserate, I like being open and sharing something wonderful, because sometimes it helps others feel some kind of wonderful as well. I just wish it didn't seem like it was so hard to do this thing that I like! I know that this industry is all about playing the game and staying positive throughout. I know that. Still. Inevitably, the whole business just gets to a girl!
This afternoon, I went to an audition for Miracle on 34th St, directed by Richard Stafford. I've auditioned for him a few times before for other productions and have made it to final callbacks, so imagine my chagrin to be turned away at today's audition because ... big surprise... there wasn't enough time to see non-union singer/dancers.
Counting my lucky stars to have friends and family around to encourage me to keep going, especially because I know that not everyone has people like my people to prop them up when they are feeling down. Maybe some day I'll be able to prop myself up on my own all the time... but until then...
Ah well... full speed ahead to more class and more auditions tomorrow!
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